Barely Just

I face annihilation
before I fall asleep
I feel the firm formation
of oceans wide and deep

there’s a mirror on the wall
and I don’t like what I see
I’m twisted and I feel so small
but there’s none of us too free

to say that we are masters
of anything at all
who isn’t one disaster
from curling in a ball

and all the time I’m wasting
the depths they barely care
while I am rainbow chasing
while I seek out my share

they wait for me at night
they catch me on my own
and tell me not to fight
with a thing you can’t control

my annihilation
embrace it best you can
the mirror’s quickly changing
and there’s little in my hands

let me dive, in you I trust
I give you full control
another summer barely just
as another winter rolls